The Uncommon

“I have told you these things so that you can have peace in me. In this world you will have troubles. But be brave! I have defeated the world!” (John 16:33 ERV)

It has been my struggle to witness people who have lukewarm hearts especially during the Holy Eucharist. I maybe misinterpreted their actions but I can't help but to sigh if I see there is no reverence. There are those who just go to mass for the sake of going. I tried to understand that perhaps they are in state of desolation. Nevertheless I'm a little bit concern when I hear some of them that there are gestures that are not required like sign of the cross with holy water upon exiting, etc. There are moments I also felt some doing extra gestures are over acting but I realize it is much better to do them I guess than do because it is only what is required. I mean they are bold enough to show the world how much they love the Lord and that I guess that I want to witness. I love so much the Lord that I want everyone to see Him and accept Him. Although I must keep in mind (always) that people have their differences. I just pray that their hearts which is invisible in the naked eye are in good disposition and they are better outside the church. On the other hand I have admire mostly those who are unbelievers/not Catholics/not Christians. Because there are moments they love as Jesus would love others. Although they don't worship Him which is another dilemma. Well there is really a high expectation if you declare yourself a believer. Although we are all work in progress but being complacent I guess is disheartening to see. Often I see myself as an outcast for just realizing these things and other things that are not so common to the believers. Like the concept of God's plan, how to ask for signs, etc. Last night I have read the above passage and a friend also reminded me that in old times Jesus is also different from what is common. I guess to be His disciple is to be a witness to what is the truth, to assert His word and to love just like Him. And the last is a struggle for me for how can a simple lady like me would love the unlovable? Its really difficult and I pray that He will give me grace to do that.