Where is the Love?

I am sad in the recent dispute between Pacquiao and LGBT particularly Vice Ganda. I'm a fan of Pacquiao for bringing a name to the country but as a politician well I bet you know where I stand. As for Vice Ganda, in spite of her below the belt jokes I can call myself a real fan of this comedian as well. Nevertheless tonight as I browse my twitter feed, I cannot contained any longer to react on this fiasco. First, I felt bad for Pacquiao. I know he just answered a question and it just turn out that he really is against same sex marriage given that he is a Christian. Also given that he is not that literate we can assure he didn't mean that well whatever how bluntly he told a fact. Yes it is a fact. But one thing he forgotten is that he should have iterated that 'in his opinion as a Christian'. Why? because simply not all are Christians though it caused me to be sad for the negative reactions are now coming from Catholic and Christians alike. I think it is also foul to ask by Vice Ganda if everybody is following the bible. My goodness! what kind of example are you trying to portray? I know you are gay and have numerous relationship with men but please be remorseful. Don't parade your sinfulness as if nothing is wrong and it is widely accepted. Yes that is the problem. The public has been complacent. That is why I am even more disappointed with the Filipinos in general. In my previous blog I already told how I admire mostly  locals here for their reverence for the mass. The Filipinos especially the youth are having values as if they are not believers.. Yes we are not all Catholics, nor Christians. But for goodness sake, know your bible and don't argue that because we are human that we tend to commit mistake. We are all called to be saints. Pacquaio already apologize and what Vice Ganda should also do is to apologize that he too is just human, though sinful but please don't judge him and compare him to an animal. End of story. We must always remember that we are called to be like Jesus. And Jesus is a friend of sinners.

The Force Within

My not so long hibernation have some realizations indeed. I guess I've been dragging myself for too long to work now without purpose.. Just to get by, pay my debts and provide for my family. I looked at the young me before and I realize what really missing in my life now is the driving force to work.. to have passion in what I'm doing. Since all my sisters are now career women, I don't have the obligation anymore to provide and send them to school. I'm not really oblige now to send money to my family, just to help them pay the car we loaned from the bank. But other than that I have all my life. I have tried to go back to my passion of drawing and discovered my ability to paint. It is amazing indeed that my artistic side emerged even if I have taken it for granted for too long. I'm still afraid to step as a real writer since this path has been not easy for me. I have received a lot of criticisms before and I just knew I'm not that good grammarian nor my vocabulary is wide like the real writers we know. Nevertheless if I've been called to serve and a few believe in my talent then let it be. But those are just sidelines. What about my bread and butter? For nineteen years now I've been a Programmer and though I've served as Team Lead before or Business Analyst in a short while, going back to this dirty old job seems like demoting myself. I mean this has help me earn a lot especially when my sisters needed tuition fees or my mom just wanted to travel. But at this stage of my life where everybody is moving along and I'm just minding my own life, isn't it not selfish to dream also that I have some fulfillment? I'm not a lazy person. I'm thankful to realize that finally. The reason I don't want to work lately is because I'm not motivated. Especially now that there are so many restrictions in the office that I felt are not good for us employees. I'm really hoping and praying I can really land to another opportunity wherein I can showcase my skills and really feel the fulfillment of working. I do belong to corporate world but hoping opportunities are still there for me. Otherwise my plan B should work. That is go back to academe and teach the youth. I still wanted to make things better by contributing my listening ear to the public. That's why I wanted to be a Counselor someday. Perhaps part time. Perhaps full time. It depends on the succeeding months. This is mid life crisis.