Not Just Ready

I've celebrated my birthday with my sisters in Christ. That is one of the joys of having a community wherein to have friends who can understand you and whom you can really walk with because you have same faith. Nevertheless there is also a downside when the community is getting bigger. The values are not in place and it seems even the leaders are clueless with the mission and vision of the group. They say I'm tough and strict to still adhere to what I think is right. Yes I belong to the conservatives but only aim to uphold the truth and teaching of the church and Christ. I don't preach without basis and I don't lord my members. I felt that they view me as their "ate" or big sister and they are comfortable with me. Although there are still lies though when unfolded I just knew they were shy for me to find out that they have disobeyed. The funny part is they know they are wrong but still insist on doing these things just for the sake of "love"- the most misused word. Although I just give them my two cents and still let them know that they can journey with my group as long as they wanted to learn and love God. I also told them we are all sinners and who am I to judge them though I insist that if you know it's wrong then don't do it any more. My unit head last weekend has been teasing me to step up for unit head role next year. I just laugh out loud. For me, the community is not ready for a person like me. There would be challenges for sure if others won't agree on the way I do things especially I am indeed strict and make it clear to follow the teachings and strive for holiness. My members know by now that there is still joy in striving for holiness where you don't have to hide because you are committing sin and being shameful about it. I guess the community is too afraid to lose a member than uphold the truth and teachings of Christ.