I celebrated my 40th birthday last month and it was a blast! I chose it to be with my relatives. It was expensive though because I celebrated with them in a buffet restaurant but I cannot contain the happiness that time and its worth it. Aside from that I received the best gift that day. I also went to my shrink that day and was advised that I really didn't need the anti-psychotic medicine since I've been healed for several years now. What keeping her from giving me that medicine is my dependability with the drug. I didn't know how to react but continue to listened. She further told me that the additional medicine for anti-depressant may last until a year which is the only drug I need at this moment. As I ponder on my way home, I'm surprise that all these years I tormented myself as lunatic and asked for healing and finally here it is! I still got difficulty sleeping when I went back to my real world but maybe perhaps of stomach flu which I also have. I'm feeling better at this moment and hoping by tomorrow there won't be anymore LBM. Last night, I happened to read about St. Therese of Lisieux years of depression that I didn't know if it is right reaction to feel happy about it. I mean I always picture the saints to be perfect and now learning that they were really more like me I thought that perhaps these are just trials for those who love God dearly. It is compliment to be among His saints but I do worry just like Saint Theresa said that what if she lead the people around who believe in her toward damnation instead to God. Nevertheless, I still felt great that after all this illness was just a trial and I have surpass it with my faith. Thank God I'm healed!
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