True Self

 I realize just now how I grew up to be like this. Like any other child, I was raised to know good and never be bad on eyes of others. I've been hating myself for too long because I am afraid to be myself since I was told to hide it so I won't get embarassed or to gain respect. Now all of that have changed. Years passed, I learned what I want to do my life and started to see sparkle of hope that my life is still livable. I guess my life has been tough on my early years. I've been with people who only think of themselves and like a blank slate, I absorbed all of it with instill fear in my heart. I work hard for who I am right now. I may be a trouble child with idealistic vision. That is the way I was raised. To believe on good, to do good. But the final ingredient is to be myself. That is the best thing I have found in my 45 years of existence. I cannot please everybody so just do what I love. I am a good human and I still have in humanity even how diverse the thoughts of each one of us. Religion, politics, family, values.. I have my own thoughts and I will no longer be manipulated. The time has come when I now have my own voice and I'm grateful I now found my true self. I am loved.