I'm glad I have attended last July the Crossroads retreat and now that I'm really in the crossroad has given me the opportunity to apply what I have learned. I've been overwhelmed by the fact that Sr. Linda, my spiritual adviser, has revealed to me that I have eliminated a vocation for a wrong reason. Now is the time to think things over and would let me really face the issue. I have this idea before that I would just let a somewhat long time dream passed and be one of those people who would say 'If I could turn back time I would do this and that.' Yes it made me realize it is not too late. I still have time to really give in to that dream. But this time to really discern if it is my calling or if it is just a fairy tale to me that I wish to come true. I've been talking to several different people since yesterday and even how diversified their opinions were, it helped me a lot to think things through. There were sound advise and there were also so so. One has been surprise that I'm discerning since it is quite unbelievable for her and also a taboo. She thinks that I will be such a waste if I will continue. I've met several people like her in the past and I can say my own parents think the same way. But there is continuous stirring inside my heart and thinking that in someday I can be like that put a big grin on my face. Yes I'm in a verge of deciding though there are moments that all three vocations are equal. I guess I really need to pray hard this time and listen. And then take a leap of faith.
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