Heaven is Here

I'm now enrolled as Graduate student of UPOU. I should have known it before for I really wanted to take Masters after I graduated from college. I've wasted few years back when I hesitated to give it a try in UP. Simply because its UP! I have these worries that I will not be able to make it. But here I am on the first semester of 2015. Nevertheless, I realized I have many things I wanted to take. I'm currently enrolled at Social Work since it is the closest course I can take to be a Counsellor. Though I have this big dream of leaving my current job and work on my own phase, whenever and wherever I want. But get real. I'm not born with silver spoon on my mouth so I have to keep this job. I'm blessed coz life and career has been easy as an IT professional. I guess I just have to leave the programming part and concentrate as Quality Assurance or even on Testing perhaps or on Design. I can help others anyway any time given a chance. The sad part is I cannot take both course simultaneously. I mean I also wanted to take Masters in Info Systems so as to remain competitive in the market. I've computed the over all age I'm going to finish.. plus I have the intention of taking PHD in Counselling or Psychology so I will be in my golden years perhaps. And I can't stop but think of how I wasted my time on romantic love and on mourning. I really should have started everything and now it seems I'm running out of time. For now I'm going to take and need to pass the ITIL certification exam just to remain marketable even without the Masters. When I think of all these things I wanted to do with my life, I just can't help but grin on how I will able to fit having a family of my own. Alas, I don't even have a lovelife right now! I leave the part of studying Theology (which is one of my passion to learn) coz there are talks in our parish and they are for free. All I need is to diligently attend them and if given a chance perhaps I can be a good spiritual director too. Right now I'm a spiritual mother of five single ladies and I can say I am now proud of myself. The Lord has indeed prepared me to become one. No more worries if I fit in and if they will respect me. All I know is that as far as the Lord loves me and I love Him with all my heart then I can share Him to anyone. I may be a tough even to advise on living a righteous life but in time and with prayers God will prevail. I still don't know how many years I have to live. But I just felt I'm just beginning to live my life to the fullest. I'm so excited. Thank you Lord for this chance. Thank you for the eternal life.