I often hear that the celebrity sister of the president have a chip installed on her wrist so she can be easily tracked in case something happened to her. I find it ridiculous to hear also from one of my born again friends that it is a sign of the devil. Well I cannot defend her much on her life choices but I cannot stand also to hear how they judge her and her being Catholic. I just felt that celebrities and famous people have more responsibility since they are being look up to. They can influence more people especially the young ones. But they are human too and can do mistakes. I often hear a lot of judgement because one is Catholic especially if they are in different denomination. They knew I'm also Catholic but I really don't know what going on inside their heads that they can say these things in front of me. Well there were times too that they asked me questions and I felt humiliated since I committed something wrong. But those are in the past and I forgave them and understand their nature. I just keep on telling myself what Jesus told to his disciple that all those who use his name are not against him. Although I still don't get the idea why so many denominations and each claiming to be followers of him. I instilled in my mind one sermon of the priest -- ganyan lang sila but they are our friends.
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My co-Catechist told me when I was still teaching that Jesus real job during his time is not a carpenter but something to do with oil lamps. I have high respect on her since she came from the convent (once a postulate) and I knew she learned it somewhere and not just inventing stories. Those times though I'm already serving the Lord, I still have issues on my faith. I felt cheated in just simple information like that. For me what else is not true about what I know on Jesus. How can I have relationship with him if everything presented to me is false. I consulted a priest who calmed me down. He told me that piece of information which is not even validated is not important. What Jesus did and still doing is what matters. I'm deeply moved and from then seek more of him inside my heart. I admitted though that there are times I failed to listen to him and just babble on my prayers.
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Another conversation with the above priest is about third eye. These were during the times I don't have spiritual adviser and we just chat on facebook. I was so afraid that I will be judged as into occult if I claimed I have such gift. And I'm also tired of hearing that everything is just my imagination. Again he told me a promising advice -- there are still things that are out of touch and we cannot just simply say they are not real. He gave me confidence and relief that I should also believe on myself and not rely on what others is saying.
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Another wise advise he told me was when I consulted to him about what I felt on my unworthiness. It has been my feeling for quite sometime that perhaps one of the sign of depression. Even after Confession I still felt not loved and unworthy. My shrink then told me not to be harsh on myself and to also forgive myself. The priest told me then we are all unworthy but God chose us to be his children. All we have to do is accept that love. I wept after that and realize how much God loves me.
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