Going for Real

I tend to be hard on myself and also realize I am somewhat so keen on defining things. Even the hard concept in religion (since it is my favorite topic) I tried to search and comprehend every language especially popular in the communities. At first I was surprised and confused to hear such words and cannot comprehend them. I guess my love for God has sometimes became over-spiritual. But as I seek to know and understand the true nature of God only then I realize what His true nature really is and overcome over-spirituality. What do I mean by over-spirituality? For me it is odd belief that everything has been attributed to God. Even simple task like decision making and how to live the life. Well in larger perspective we really need to pray to Him for guidance and inspiration. But it is too much I guess if also our plans in our life we will also depend on Him. We are not robots or minions just to follow every command or a blueprint that lay before us. He even give us freewill. So I guess I am not surprise when there are people who then ask me about their confusion on God's plan for them. They simply cannot choose and decide for their own because they are afraid it is not according to God's plans. Ironically this is not the God I have known. He is so loving and not a dictator. Yes we are free. He only wants goodness for all of us. We can choose whatever we want in our life especially the vocations. Others even become so superstitious that they think harm would come to them if they will fail to pray or pass the chain prayers given to them, or even ask for signs that the Lord has heard their prayers. There are times really that God gives signs. But often it is our faith and rational thinking if the prayer has been really answered. We are given minds to think and we are intelligent enough to evaluate things. I admire those who have courage to express their love for God in every moment of their lives yet they are rational beings. That is why I never ceased to know Him more. Only the truth will set us free.